It's been a damn while and i apologize to all my fans for not making a statement! Wow, my luck is so bad! Yesterday i bought a coffee from second cup, and as i was walking down the street i noticed that the cup had a hole in the bottom of it and that the coffee was spilling all over me. Damn coffee ruins me. This isnt the first time coffee has attacked me. This incident got me thinking about how bad my luck really is. Nothing ever goes right for me. NOTHING! I have the immune system of someone with aids, no offense to aids people. Which means i get sick constantly(once a month on average). I had a tre branch fall on my head a month ago which left me twitching on the ground and blood flowing out of my head like a fucking giezer. I had a coffee spill all over my arm which left burn scars all on my left arm. If i get anything electronic, for some damn reason, it refuses to work for me, and i am left cursing and crying and thinking "why me?". It is times like that that i think i should just end it all. Maybe jump off a bridge, but knowing my luck i'd probably survive and just be a quad for the rest of my life:( ho hum. maybe all these bad things that have happened to me will be followed up by something really positive. There is no Ying withoug the Yang. AND i am a nice person, bad things shouldnt happen to me:(   

Update:

not that anyone cares, but i am currently taking an acting course and George brown, which is fun. I work at a bar a block away from my house. And i was working with my uncle removing trees. Hence the branch on the head. I still get headaches. I really want to moev away from all this and start over. I've started playing guitar seriously recently and i am planning on become a guitar legend...like hendrix without the drugs, unless someone wants to share:D  Hey i'll do drugs, im just to cheap to buy them:D. Life is pretty fucking boring though. Damn, i need to make a change and fast before my brain just decides to shut off and i end up like that piano player in the movie SHINE! if anyone has seen it they know what im talking about, if not...tough titties! Im gone

Hey everyone who reads this, which is no one:(
I found out something pretty funny the other day, the family reunions that i have gone to for the McNabb's which is my great grandma's side is a farce, I'm not even part of that family. Turns out my great grandma was bor out of wedlock and was literally a bastard. Turns out I have to change my family tree from McNabb to Brown, lol.

This is to Jon, thanks a  lot buddy, i thought you were one of my true friends, and now i find out that you don't care who you hang out with, and that really hurts:'(. But Vlad is a true friend, damn u jon. I've always been so loyal to my friends and then jon kicks me in the nuts, metaphorically. I've been sleeping a lot lately and fantasizing about my future, which is kind of sad, cuz if all i do is dream, nothing real will ever happen to me, so i guess i have to stop dreaming and start living my dream out, or trying to anyway. Hollywood here i come. Mr. Charisma here, and if you don't see that, I guess, I'm screwed. I've rekindled my love for the Beatles lately and they're all i listen to anymore, all the time. They're the best band in the history of the world, and whoever doesn't see that is blind, retarded and deaf. Later bitches!

a new day for Caleb Timmermans...

wow!!! today was one of the coldest days I have ever experienced in my entire life!!! God, why do I have to live in Canada? Well I am currently doing nothings during my lonesome days by myself so I have started to bodybuild harder than ever before, cuz now it's serious. in a short time I am already feeling crazy gains from my hard work and mad dedication. I am getting pissed off about my scar though since it deturs the way my muscle looks :( but i guess i'll have to learn to live with my flaws, which aren't many. I told my parents about changes schools and they seemed pretty cool about it. My dad said to me "It isn't the end of the world, all that matters is that we have each other," Whoa! feels like I'm living in FULL HOUSE, but it was pretty cool of him. Shortly, I am going to get my photos taken so i can start commercial work and then crawl my way up into the ranks of HOLLYWOOD SUPERSTAR !!! Now if i could only learn how to act. It feels like people are following me to Monarch, like Vlad, and at the risk of his own life. Plates are deadly weapons my friend, you must learn to dodge them well. My close circle of friends has dwindled immensley, it now stands at 3, vlad, jon and steven...Sorry Enver,  or should i say Jorges. I know your secret! Well yea, my writing is quite random and weird but that is me, and how i live, and I wouldnt have it any other way. Now if my father could only accept me for it ...Goodbye Cruel World...I h8 u

wowie i feel amazed at how crazy the world is. seriously :'(, it makes me sad, what happened to the carefree days when all i cared about was...nothing. that was great, I'll miss you carefree naivety. I just realized that the world really is the awful place I've been hearing about for all these years, full of people that will kill me for their own gain. well guess what....? "I know kung-fu" BIYATCH!!! I feel like i am the type of person that could never hold down a "real" job. "WHY?" you may ask (nosey bastard). well honestly, I am a dreamer and i will never settle ever, I want only the best and won't take anything but. That is why i am moving to California first chance i get and living in valley. Find myself a nice looking 40 year old widow who will pamper me, while I spend most of my days looking for acting jobs that I will almost always attain. HELL, it'll get to the point that i won't even have to look for work because I will be in such high demand. Now if i could only learn how to act. Come on though Keanu made it... and we went to the same high school, I'm a shoe in :D YES!!! Whenever I am sad Keanu gives me hope, I just tell myself "if he can make it, so can I" anywayz looks like im changing highschools now after some crazy back injury...another one of those and i'll need surgery, which is crazy and sad. Anywayz, it seemz like no one cares about anyone any more. EVERY MAN FOR HIMSELF!!! well i say.. touche! I'll kill every last one of you! especially those damn cubans. GO AWAY!!! except u vlad;)! Honestly though, i don't hate anyone unless they hate me, then it is war and you will die a horrible death most likely involving some arsenic or a flame thrower. GUNZ are  powerful, but not as powerful as my spin kick (ask vlad) he cried. This is just my first entry and not all of them will be this weird, but hey, i am weird. I am constantly thinking about 1000 things at once, and maybe that is why i suck at everything. SINGING is my true passion, and one day i will sing higher than Mariah CArrey on helium, and that will be the day i rule the world ----------------------------------------> PEACE!:\ p.s. i did not check this for spelling or grammar... so dont hate :D I hate all of u